a little bit of love.

justbesplendid:

penthouse space

i have so much on my mind tonight. and lately in general. ever since this Seva Challenge has been over, I’ve had a lot of time to just sit and think and I feel like it’s almost turning dangerous. is that possible? if anything, i know it’s not good. my thoughts are all over the place and i cant find my real journal tonight, so i’m spilling it here. 

first. i got this new apartment. its huge. and amazing. and a great space for me to have the peace and quiet that i’ve needed for so long. the problem? it’s two bedrooms. and i came on to this lease with a second roommate, a friend from high school. wanna know the fun part? she got a boyfriend about a week after we moved in. she is always over at his place. this apartment is so unfurnished for having lived here for almost three weeks. between her working and staying with this guy, we have no time to discuss what we’re doing with the place. so i guess i’ll go at it on my own?

having my own space and working on my own time has also made me realize just how lonely i am, and how much i depend on my friends and my family. it is so hard for me to sit in this quiet for hours. when i turn on music, it still feels empty. this is hard to get used to.

next area of ventage: certain friends in my life. there are a few out there right now who are making me feel like i need to continuously bite my tongue. either i continue to piss them off or disappoint them by not saying or doing the ‘right’ things. im so tired of taking on other peoples shit. i know im feeling this because its their stuff being projected onto me (this all has a reasoning behind it that i wont go into at the moment). im tired of all of this dragging me down.

i dont know if its this fact or the loneliness factor that’s caused me to go to bed choked up/in tears the past three days. 

these are new feelings. i have to—and i will—work through them.

hard lessons to get through right now. gotta stay grounded. gotta keep breathing. gotta continue to ride the wave.

let go and let God. 

He’s my anchor. 

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The Truth About Forever by Sarah Dessen (via meestang)

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overyesterday:

merry christmas, tumblr. ♥

Merry Christmas, tumblr family!! 

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Bison-O Beautiful Star

Blessed to have these guys as a part of our local music community. They continually give me chills. Listen to this song and be amazed, but most of all remember the real reason for the season. Merry Christmas, everyone <3

Anonymous asked: hey what are some of your fundraising techniques? i'm a class president and i really need to raise A LOT of money by the end of the year and i'm already out of ideas.

oh gosh. you know, i think it varies depending on what kind of population your working with. students oftentimes dont have much money, so i would recommend an idea thats been brewing in my head…’Donate a Dollar Day’. have everyone bring just $1. for every $1 they bring, they’re entered into a raffle (raffles are GREAT and it is super easy to get restaurants and businesses to donate just a little something). Dollars add up quickly…when you say A LOT of money, how much money are you talking about?

Gorgeous Christmas Cookies:

 http://sweetopia.net/2010/12/wintery-christmas-cookies/

so. stinkin. cute.

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in bullet form this time.

• fundraising deadline got moved to Dec 31st. raised $8000 in four months…hoping miracles will happen in the next few weeks..lets get this show on the road!
• new love interest is totally adorable and goofy.
• moving into a new apartment starting tomorrow (i will miss my cat & pup).
• being a vegetarian is kicking my butt at the moment. body isnt loving it like it did when i first started.
• crazy things are happening with my life. im taking big leaps of faith and feelin good.
• will be going to New Orleans and possibly Haiti next year.
• i have a ton of new friends who are now a part of my framily. my old ones are like treasured gold, as the saying goes!
• 23 kicks ass.

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this girl is the sweetest and owns a little vintage shop down the street from my house. check out her blog and love on it!